i'm a work in progress

I finally watched the newer version of "A Raisin in the Sun" this evening with my future mommy-in-law and, I must say, it was touching and inspiring and all that gold jazz. In short, I highly recommend it. At its television premiere months back, I managed to miss it because I'm such a scholastic and actually go to class at night. But it got me to thinking about what I manage to put ahead in my life and what I perceive as important values to preserve. And currently reading "The Secret" doesn't help, either.

I know I moan about going to work, but work is how to survive, and has been for generations of black people. You put pride into your work, and you do your job with the utmost humility and joy because there are so many of my people out there who are disabled and cannot work; who are blind and cannot see to work; who are wrongfully incarcerated and...well, you know. My mother cannot find a job, for goodness sake, at age 40 and with "too much experience." And once I do find that position in which I would work for free out of so much passion and desire to do my job, I will crave and nurture it. For now, I will be a security guard and smile and tackle people to the ground with grace. J/K!

Money is not in the equation for me. Having money is nice, but money is the root of all evil, and I refuse to make the pursuit of money a part of my demise or, in the least, make me insane. My Johnny and I know that happiness is the biggest goal of our lives, even though it sounds cliche, but we really treasure our goal and work to achieve it every day. Yes, I'm serious. If I'm honoring life, as God ordained it, He will provide me with all the money I need.

And another thing: I vow to positively drag good things from the universe into my days. Reading "The Secret" has helped me tame my negative thinking into its more positive counterpart, and I'm trying my best not to wish bad things upon the person who cuts in front of me while driving, and the white lady who runs to walk in front of me into the building or get ahead of me at the grocery store, and the people who don't say "thank you" when I hold the door open for them. Ok, well, not always, but I'm a work in progress! Lord, help me now. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts...